As I sit and ponder
You came into my mind
It’s such a wonder
I’m missing you all the time

Tell me dear friend
Where did we go wrong?
It’s been long since you held my hand
And ever since for you I long

What did I do wrong?
To offend you so, dear
I would never make you blue
My life I pledge, if only you are here

How do I say what’s in my heart
Is it because of who I talk to when you’re not around?
Is it because of the things I said?
Or didn’t say
My judgements are all warped
But I know it is to you that I’m bound

I hold my heart in my hand
I would gladly give it back to you
I thank god for His creation
It is against your will
But I will love you still
In my isolation

Dear god, please make me strong again. To face this world alone. Dear god, please make me strong again. To face all obstacles alone. Dear god, please punish me for all the wrongdoings that ive done. To the people that i love the most. Dear god, thank you for bringing love into my life. Thank you for letting me feel love in that short period of time. A love that I can never live without. A love that got me in cloud nine all the days. A love that I truly love and adore. A love that was unconditional.

Somehow, along the journey, I hurt that love of mine. And somethings cannot be undone. Somethings just leave a huge mark in my love's life. In my love's heart. Im sorry for hurting my love. Im sorry love for hurting you. Im sorry love for breaking your heart. Im sorry love for all the hurtful words.

And you say you need space as a friend. If being in isolation will give me back what i lost, i am willing to do that. I will give you that space. I will give you just that. All i want is just your happiness and may you find true love again. Someone whom you can click with and share your life, sorrows and your joys with. You will never hear of me again. But i just want you to know that im still here and i'll always care.

Love, Afidah