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Thursday, July 31, 2008/ 11:04 PM fidah loves whatever free time/break that he has. Love of mine that same familiar feelings. our secret rendezvous.just us two. ~thinking about thinking of you.~ |
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Wednesday, July 30, 2008/ 10:55 PM now that the holidays are here again... BMCD1 0715A and BMCD1 0715B come out to play! feeling kinda lazy and sleepy cos im damn full. oh wells... nth new. the girls.. 0715A and 0715B girls..  chelsea took an aweful long time to reach.. must be from LONDON.. lols..  we cannot be separated. hahaha. try lahh.. haha  CHEERS!  my own customized float.. thanks to belle.. hahaha  and I AM THE EGYPTIAN PRINCESS.. hahaha.. who looks drunk and high.. hahaha.. had an awesome day stuffing myself with loads of food.. lets do this more girls.. :) and now im just too lazy to blog.. ~awesome-est day!~ |
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Tuesday, July 29, 2008/ 6:56 PM "ching chong ching chong-ing" for two hours.  smiles.had a bad dream. but i know you'll be fine. ~ohh sat-urday. come fast.~ |
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Monday, July 28, 2008/ 10:12 PM disturbia. i am disturbed. by my past. by my present. by my future. the past haunts me. he just can't seem to move on. he has someone to move on with, but he just can't. the present looks scary. the choices that i have to make. choose one. either tear someone's heart apart or tear both heart's. neither one i want to choose, but inevitably someday that time will surely arrive. the future looks enticing. but there's always a risk. as much as im beginning to love dreaming about my future, i don't want history to repeat itself. its disturbing that i have all these great choices around me, but i can't seem to make up my mind. its disturbing that i keep comparing him to another when i know he's so much better. its disturbing that they're in the same division, same base and thinking them as pals, disturb me more. its disturbing that i keep hearing hearts breaking into pieces even when im here, and they're somewhere else. cloudy judgement ain't getting me nowhere. ~looking forward to saturday.~ |
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Thursday, July 24, 2008/ 4:24 PM hangover from POC & Party World.  Blogger will be back in a few days time when she has all the pictures of that awesome day. Currently nursing a very bad headache and hangover. And yes! That "beer" like drink is mine. HEH. The reason why i got so high. It's green tea larrr.. sheesh.. my police escort aka my personal bodyguard who wants my parents to be his in-laws (in white shirt) just POC'ed yesterday. nice stuff.  saw men in uniform. *hyper eyebrows* pri sch friend who happens to be ana's cousin, received the best cadet award. and nope, im not married! maybe i already did. in thailand. lols. i want more party worlds/ktv/k-box/cashbox. ~and i've decided.~ |
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Tuesday, July 15, 2008/ 12:09 AM its nothing but a bunch of crap. my heart is nothing but a lump of crap now. what crap. blog will only be alive again after the 23rd. will see how things go, and decide. school's not helping either. what a bunch of crap. it's raining and i just wanna curl up and cry to my heart's content. crap. ~if you're not the one, why do i feel all these weird emotions?~ |
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Sunday, July 13, 2008/ 8:04 PM no more. no more. ignorance is bliss.ignorance is bliss.ignorance is bliss.ignorance is bliss.ignorance is bliss.ignorance is bliss.ignorance is bliss.ignorance is bliss.ignorance is bliss.ignorance is bliss.ignorance is bliss. gonna wait for the 23rd. will make a decision then. ~taking it easy.~ |
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Friday, July 11, 2008/ 10:54 PM we do what we do best. getting blindfolded sounds kinky enuf? im sure im sure. but it's much much better when it's ur birthday bash planned by your friends of eight years.  using the picture above as a referral, this is not for the faint hearted. felt like i was in some terrorist camp but the only major difference was.. there was super sappy bon jovi singing in the background..the brownie. after effect of the bomb blast that shook the whole of toh guan. or prolly due to the fartings and burpings. gross. hahah.  foodies. and there's more. :)  satisfied after stabbing the brownie. warrior girl. rawr!  ignore sal's hair please. lols. spaghetti and more foodies...  next target: pizza. kill kill!!! whahaha  warrior girl wins the war!  to the two other warrior girls, thank you for the awesome-est time yesterday. gained dunno how many kgs and so i have to work even harder to lose that kgs yo! thank you loves for the foodies, though u guys burped and farted, i still love you ppl yo! ~the black jack's club.~ |
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Thursday, July 10, 2008/ 9:28 PM brain dead. speechless and lost cannot comprehend. too many for me now. im so dead now. just when i don't need them, they come rushing in. headache. headache. how now? now how? don't know what to do. ~too many for me to handle now.~ |
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/ 12:19 AM chicken-neh-neh. i'm just gonna drop dead now. im a chicken. im not a chicken. fidah but this is a different situation altogether. for the first time, she is unsure. she contemplates. so many things are not worth risking. but what if it's for the better. what if she's risking friendship for her own selfish reasons? heh. ~why am i not dead yet?~ |
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Wednesday, July 9, 2008/ 12:40 AM life's like that. been thinking why things ended up the way they ended. for sure some were not nice to begin with. but things happen for a reason. it is for the good of all. i am vainer. cos i realise looks can bring me somewhere. a place where i have never even thought of going to. meeting people who i've never seen before nor knew they even existed. i am bitchier. cos i've got to stay true to myself. and no one can change me. especially guys. i am me. i am not her. i will never be her. get that in your head. i can never walk like a real lady. my eye-liner smudges at times. clumsy and i tend to talk with my mouth full. im sorry if this is a major turn off but, this is reality. i don't hate dolling up but it's just not my forte. i doll up just to make myself feel good, after all that i've went through. hide behind the seemingly flawless skin in an attempt to hide away all my blues. sleepless nights became an addiction besides coffee and chocolate. toss and turn trying to push all that bugging thoughts away. 3hrs. every night, 3hrs of tossing, turning, staring, drifting before finally sleeping. i don't regret my decisions but sometimes i do wish that time would just rewind and give me a chance to do everything back all over again. sighed over lost love, and smile thinking about the people who loves me. there are just times that this nasty head would go on a different mode and i'll go "damn, should have tell that guy in the first place." lols. get all emo and stuff but no point. lols. now it says "dangs! shouldn't have went for that dates with him." fallen for someone huh? lols. 4 dates. loved each and everyone of them. marry poppins still reside in my head. starbucks will still see me as a very loyal customer. will still have that walk from borders to funan. paragon toilet. suntec's pizza hut. and the last bus ride. ~it's just a little crush.~ |
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Monday, July 7, 2008/ 11:39 PM 21. (damn, no jim sturgess). but 2 loves. :) for the record, yes im 21.  spent the day with my two loves, nad and yani. neoprinted (i know its such an old thing but we simply love it), camwhored, eat, shop, laughed, and basically shopped and laughed. for some of the pics where my panda eyes are clearly visible, blame it on mugging, assignment and the pre-course assignments. no amt of makeup cld hide them. i swear i've tried. but to no avail. pfft. -_- used whatever we cld to camwhore.  yanihunny. i love you. nad dearie. i love you too. thank you loves for the fun-nest(no such word. but wth.) celebration. it was a lovely day. though my eyes hurts for the whole day. smiling with a slitty eyes the whole time, forcing my eyes to be open the whole evening. i didn mind the pain. cause i had lotsa fun! dreading exam. hate panda eyes. need more sleep. but who cares, next date on thursday yo! yay yo! ~lovelove,afie afidah.~ |
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Sunday, July 6, 2008/ 12:06 AM loves him. ~wanna dance like JT.~ |
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/ 12:03 AM july babies. happy birthday yo!   to the rest of the july babies.. ain, nisa, and yati.. happy birthday lovelies. ~sun dress, sweater, and korean like top made my day.~ thank you lovelies for the birthday wishes. much love, afie afidah |
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Friday, July 4, 2008/ 3:25 PM american baby. thank you dearies for the wishes and hugs. thank you dian, sal and moben for doing the count down with me last night. to the two yans, thank you for the wishes. nisa dearie, fidah loves you. yani hunny and naddy, i'll always love you guys forever and ever. instructor han, i am always a yr younger. never older. haha my miss manager, i wish i still have hayley's hair.. pfft. haha mariam and amanda, thank you loves for the very nice facebook posts. hahaha. my iras jasmine, love you babe.. somehow i don't like friday cos that means sch is starting very very soon. exam is just ard the corner. and there's still one pre-course assignment to complete. started my 21st day on earth by gossipping and confessions and what not. that was utter fun. but fell asleep halfway. nth new there. haha. and sacrifices are at time crucial. but is it worth it? we shall see.. lols. ~someone who misses someone else alot.~ |
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Wednesday, July 2, 2008/ 10:25 PM dear god. the same emotions. its overwhelming. i hate it. going on a hibernating mode. don't know why i feel tired these few days. ~its dead.~ |
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