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Monday, July 28, 2008/ 10:12 PM disturbia. i am disturbed. by my past. by my present. by my future. the past haunts me. he just can't seem to move on. he has someone to move on with, but he just can't. the present looks scary. the choices that i have to make. choose one. either tear someone's heart apart or tear both heart's. neither one i want to choose, but inevitably someday that time will surely arrive. the future looks enticing. but there's always a risk. as much as im beginning to love dreaming about my future, i don't want history to repeat itself. its disturbing that i have all these great choices around me, but i can't seem to make up my mind. its disturbing that i keep comparing him to another when i know he's so much better. its disturbing that they're in the same division, same base and thinking them as pals, disturb me more. its disturbing that i keep hearing hearts breaking into pieces even when im here, and they're somewhere else. cloudy judgement ain't getting me nowhere. ~looking forward to saturday.~ |
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