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Wednesday, July 9, 2008/ 12:40 AM life's like that. been thinking why things ended up the way they ended. for sure some were not nice to begin with. but things happen for a reason. it is for the good of all. i am vainer. cos i realise looks can bring me somewhere. a place where i have never even thought of going to. meeting people who i've never seen before nor knew they even existed. i am bitchier. cos i've got to stay true to myself. and no one can change me. especially guys. i am me. i am not her. i will never be her. get that in your head. i can never walk like a real lady. my eye-liner smudges at times. clumsy and i tend to talk with my mouth full. im sorry if this is a major turn off but, this is reality. i don't hate dolling up but it's just not my forte. i doll up just to make myself feel good, after all that i've went through. hide behind the seemingly flawless skin in an attempt to hide away all my blues. sleepless nights became an addiction besides coffee and chocolate. toss and turn trying to push all that bugging thoughts away. 3hrs. every night, 3hrs of tossing, turning, staring, drifting before finally sleeping. i don't regret my decisions but sometimes i do wish that time would just rewind and give me a chance to do everything back all over again. sighed over lost love, and smile thinking about the people who loves me. there are just times that this nasty head would go on a different mode and i'll go "damn, should have tell that guy in the first place." lols. get all emo and stuff but no point. lols. now it says "dangs! shouldn't have went for that dates with him." fallen for someone huh? lols. 4 dates. loved each and everyone of them. marry poppins still reside in my head. starbucks will still see me as a very loyal customer. will still have that walk from borders to funan. paragon toilet. suntec's pizza hut. and the last bus ride. ~it's just a little crush.~ |
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