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Wednesday, November 26, 2008/ 8:00 PM of fun and false alarm.  a very much needed 'getaway' with the two girlfriends. it was a last minute plan to cold rock and tons of fun. yeah, i played taboo AGAIN.me: UHH!! UH!! white house is located at?!! OBAMA!! nurul: AMERICA!! (damn super confident lah) me: NOO!!! ITS A STATE!! nurul: (hits forehead) SHIT. I KNOW WHERE'S THAT. sal: k k.. the actor.. DENZEL... nurul: WASHINGTON!!! gawd! i swear we took geography back in sec school. hahaha. but i flunked mine terribly lah. hahaha.. pictionary was another headache-causing game. i felt like a psyduck when it was my turn. darns. I HAD TO DRAW. and i cannot draw! hahahaha. this is prolly one of the reason why im more in-tuned to words. (i hope) lols.. UNO time. wanted to play bluff (bruff). since i was completely clueless about bruffing(?) my way through the game. so we ended up playing UNO instead. good ol' UNO. haha. and nurul lost. whahaha. it was a thrilling nite out at holland v. hehe. twilight soon baybehs! hehe. and so my mum panicked cos i received a letter from OKCU. stating something like i've been admitted into Oklahoma City University Bachelor of Arts, with concentration in Mass Communications. She thought I have to complete the rest of my studies over at US of A. false alarm lah sey. sheesh. if only it was real. i would jump for joy up and down and never stop. ~one thing that's gonna be hard to let go, of all things, is YOU.~ |
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Tuesday, November 25, 2008/ 3:29 PM taboo nights. so im back from my holiday. although it was a short trip to batam, i had bountiful amount of fun. haha.    my taboo partners-in-crime. so i had to describe the word cheerleading. couldn remember the cheerleading movie. "bring it on".me: UHHH..UHHHH..ahh!! syima.. not choir.. short skirt.. jump jump.. sis: (confidently) MINAH! poor syima.. hahaha.. had the pool to ourselves. it was so fun.  and yeah we went karaoke in batam. the indon songs are more updated as compared to what we have over here. and kak midah evolved into a rocker overnight. belted all of bon jovi's songs and she particularly loved "you give love a bad name." RAWK ON. PEACE OUT! hahahaha. Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktuTak mengenal puitis Hanya tulusnya hati Mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu Keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu Selalu ~i foresee a(our) future babe.~ |
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Friday, November 21, 2008/ 4:49 PM second HTA visit. and so i was back to where i first met love. ok la, not the assembly ground. but still, it was the HTA. i could still remember my feelings back then. fuuh. excited lah cos can see men in uniform. they've got this umph factor. and it was mixed with nervousness cos i am shy by nature. hehe. so i was really really shy and quiet. i swear i was. hahahaha. and yesterday i was excited cos this time round, we went earlier so i can see loads more men in uniform. ok la not bad la. but my bf better. HOHO! haha.  i do not intend to post pics up cos i looked damn tired. yeah. and i was trying really hard to cover up parts that weren'tsuppose to be exposed to the public and the police officers there. and especially when we had to sit with this malay family in the room. it felt damn weird. took pics with ranjeet. bf's fren and khai's fren. funny guy. and sal.... there's a cute chinese guy there.. wooooo!!! hahahah.. dah feeling feeling mcm heartlanders lak.. hahaha.. and an overdue pic. love's coming after his work and sleeping over. so its holiday for us tmr. hehe. :P i don't see the need for me to be nice to all. esp when i've made the effort to extend my hand and be friends. i just cannot be bothered anymore. and i'm not going to kill my brain cells trying to help people when all they do is nothing and hope for things to happen. no one's gonna step all over me anymore. and bank loan's being an ass. pfft. ~i love you regardless of your past dear.~ |
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Tuesday, November 18, 2008/ 1:58 PM breathe easy. i can finally breathe easy. says goodbye to psychology (forever i hope. lols) so exam was on saturday. i reall think i screwed that paper up. howells, i did my best, studied too. so chins up! hehe. did some shopping for the upcoming holidays im gonna have. batam this saturday with the family and boyfie. cameron highlands/pahang early december with the family (prays hard) bali late december with the family (prays even harder) accompanied bf to his friend's wedding. i saw that face, that similar longing in his eyes. i went "SHIT". lets walk away. but but but someone looked good ehh. hehe. *winks* can't wait for friday night. sleepover ehh. ~i'm a nice girl. i swear. hehe.~ |
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Thursday, November 13, 2008/ 10:35 PM ultimate low. not good not good. i probably had an accident that i didn know i had. i'm suffering from retrograde amnesia. i cannot, for the love of god, retain new information. im getting so irritated/agitated/frustrated. SHIT. i've never swear or curse so much in my entire life. and worse, im swearing at my own hand-written notes. i hate the textbook, its so freaking huge and thick. my arm hurts from cradling it while i furiously flip to the pages of the text. i hate the module, its so freaking freaking freaking annoying. the brain parts have such long names. its freaking annoying. if its a brain, its a brain! goddammit! im so freaking depress now. i wanna bawl my eyes out. but no, i can't do that cos if i do that mum would get sadder cos daddy is not home. daddy come home lah. ish. his workers working damn slow lah. ish. so unlike the cry-baby fidah, i hold back my tears, put up a brave front for mummy and just be braver. judging from the course syllabus that i received, research methodology will be another pain in the ass. cos its a freaking group work. and some people just love to free-rides in class. and need to get another book, think what money grow from trees ah. money money money money. neverending. i want to rip off my hair, cut myself, bleed, hang myself from the ceiling and just die. then i don't have to sit for exam on saturday. but for now, i badly want to tear those notes into pieces and eat them all up. gobble them down and maybe i'll get admitted into IMH. ~daddy come home now.~ |
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Tuesday, November 11, 2008/ 8:34 PM highs and lows. i could be as high as the himalayas mountain at one point of time. and the next second, im as low as the seabed of the deepest ocean in the world. contributing factor: my psychology notes. i swear im getting so many mixed reactions from myself. i could read the notes i prepared and say "YES, I UNDERSTAND WHATEVER IM READING." next moment, "SHIT! WTF IS THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN?!" some of the words i couldn't even pronounce them, let alone remember how to spell their freaking name. im going bonkers very very very sooon. and i don't get it why women still relies heavily on men when they can do it by themselves. why postpone when you can do it in a jiffy. TSK! FISH! exam is four freaking days away. FISHIFYING! ~you can do it fidah.~ |
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Wednesday, November 5, 2008/ 8:16 PM speechless. i got a pleasant shock when i came out from the loo. my childhood bestie's mum and sis were in the living room. and so i knew something's happening for sure. bestie's mum: AFIDAHHHH!!!! (so i gave them my mega-watt smile, cos it was nice seeing them after such a long time. sat down infront of lappie while looking at my typed out application papers.thinking of proof reading them.) mum: da, nurin dah nak kahwin. (which means my childhood bestie, nurin is getting married.) (i prolly looked shocked. but i gave them a nice sweet smile.) and mum continued..... mum: a ah.. yang sama umur ngan dada (yaa,the one who's of the same age as you.) (i took the wedding invitation card and yeah, she's really getting married..) and so they talked, talked and talked. and suddenly mum noticed i was there. oh yes like suddenly she noticed me. mum: cik zarina nak dapat cucu. bila mak nye turn ehh.. (she's gonna get grandchildren..when's my turn to get grandchildren?) i was speechless and lost. so yeah, mum wants grandchildren asap. so hmmm. and i doubt sis is in a mood to get hitch now after what she went through. and later during dinner... dad: sekolah baik baik.. concentrate.. mana tau nanti dah habis skolah boleh tolong suami sikit sikit.. (meaning.... concentrate on your studies, atleast you can help your husband in the future.) i was like ehh.. since when am i involved in this matter?? husband?? huh?? ok lor, just keep quiet.. thats the best thing to do in this situation.. but still with my relationship with rosli being more known to the family, mum expects me to hold the relationship intact and strong. and ohh she keeps 'singing' to my ears abt her friends having grandchildren at her age.. oh btw sayang, mum says wait for me for another 4 years. then can get hitch.. now hows that for motivation from the parents. sheesh. ~good things happen to those who wait.~ |
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Monday, November 3, 2008/ 9:44 PM please oh please. please just leave me alone and don't ever come back a decision was made eight months ago and there's no turning back. i have an undivided heart one to whom it's devoted to. i am no longer yours and i don't wish to be affiliated to you anymore. so please, leave me and forget me. all that i ask from you. please understand. my heart stays true to one. none you do can change that. ~and i love him the truest now.~ |
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Sunday, November 2, 2008/ 11:06 PM undivided. HAPPY 3RD MONTH LOVEY.  ~this heart, undivided, is yours for life.~ |
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Saturday, November 1, 2008/ 4:15 PM ungu fever. esplanade presents...... PESTA RAYA 08 - UNGU LIVE IN CONCERT and so i battled my body temperature of 37.8 degrees to watch ungu live in concert. went to see the doctor before the concert cos of the sore throat and blocked nose that's been bugging me. and oh yes, i was hit by the flu virus with a body temperature of 37.8.. ish best nyer.. well, thank god the concert wasn like click five.. no need to stand and scream.. if not i doubt i would get out from there alive.. ish.. ungu was AWESOME.. other than me being super irritated by the loud music.. first time huh.. must be that freaking flu bug.. mereka ganteng amat ya.. ish.. damn cute lah.. and nice voice... wooooo... hahaha.. i hope you enjoyed yourself dear cos i enjoyed the concert. *hugs*  i don't look up to it rite.. howells, there's a first time for everything. i wanna go rihanna's concert but but but, the date sucks.. its on the 13th november.. which is 2 days before my psychology exam.. i doubt mum would let me go.. pfft.. i shld prolly strt mugging already.. there's so many things to do and read and understand.. ish.. 15 nov hurry come and hurry go.. ~dum-dum-dee-dumming.~ |
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