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Thursday, October 29, 2009/ 1:11 AM now that school is over. hello hunny, i am relieved. cos you are getting better, my appointment for the visa application has been confirmed, and lectures are finished. i am so thankful for all your support when i am down cos of the visa appointment date. thank you for telling me that everything will be alright. thank you for telling me that i will be greatly missed, that you'll miss my hugs for a month. thank you for making me feel so loved. ok so now i shall start on my post assignment and you're still in my mind. monday will be my virgin trip to the embassy for the interview. and after the 14th, baby you will have me all for yourself for a good nine days before i finally fly off. oh it's going to be so hard saying goodbyes. smelly cat, *hugs* ~love, mak nenek who cried cos of bonjela.~ |
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Sunday, October 25, 2009/ 10:23 PM second major fever. hello hunz, you're down with high fever for the second time. but i'm not too worried now cos you're at home and not somewhere out there, out at work driving. please take good care of yourself cos i'm too far from where you are to nurse you back to health. wish i could be there dear. so please eat your medicines, get alot of rest, and drink lots of warm water. i'll be here praying for you to get better. *hugs hugs hugs* if you read this, just wanna let you know that i'm always here for you. ~the ulcers are irritating.~ |
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Friday, October 23, 2009/ 9:16 PM love. at JP starbucks. me: waah. 4 more days of school. then 2 weeks to exam. and 9 days left here before i fly off. i'm not ready to leave. him: (held my face in his hands and tells me firmly) you need to be ready k. cos everything will be alright. i don't know hunz. i'm super excited for the trip and all. but i'm not excited on the prospect of leaving you. but i'll believe you, that everything's gonna be alright. i hope you enjoyed your day and you love the gifts. cos there are more to come hunz. ~hugs and kisses. muahhs.~ |
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Thursday, October 22, 2009/ 2:43 PM happy birthday dear. hello dear, happy birthday. i should be doing a dedication for you but weirdly i do not have any idea what to type here. all i want is for all your prayers and wishes to be granted. that you have love all around you, health, wealth, happiness and peace. i hope you enjoy this day and the days after. love you hunz. =] its 33 days to the trip. 5 more days of school. can't wait for school to end. then exam. and BYE! hahaha. ~silly me.~ |
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Sunday, October 18, 2009/ 10:10 PM 40 days. so im left with roughly 40 days to the trip. Nw just need to settle visa, lodging in okc and grab a few more winter wear. And then packing madness starts. Ohmigosh, i hate packing. The mere thought of it is enuf to send chills down my spine. I just hope i won't leave anything important behind. Bt i will need to leave someone important behind. Its kinda hard bt im optimistic. Sch strts tmr. Last module before everyone flies off. Im so dreading sch. Cant wait for it to end, though it hasn't even start yet. Script writing class. Pray i won't doze off in class *cross fingers* Am feeling kinda sleepy. At this hr? Weird. Heh. ~i miss ur licks hunz.~ |
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/ 2:03 AM a fast one. hello dear, this will be a quick entry. Short and sweet, i hope. Haha. Watching soccer with my daddy reminds me of our lazy days together when we wld watch tv and laze ard, and u wld doze off while i look at u sleeping and ur snores are nth bt music to my ears. In short, i miss my smelly cat. Hope ure having a great night at work. ~feels at peace with everything.~ |
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Friday, October 16, 2009/ 1:52 AM you're a kite, tugging my small little heart. hello dear, i can't help it but to feel happy now. cos i met u after 2 weeks of waiting. u hugged me and held me tight, told me everything's gonna be alright, that im still ur sayang, and that behind ur marah marah u still sayang me no matter what. u're just like a kite. u need to drift away alone and when u've had enough, i need to reel u back to me. and while u're drifting, i need to make sure that i keep the string strong and tight so that u won't come crashing to the ground. so im gonna make this as simple as i can for us. u'll have ur space u've been dying for. i'll have mine. we're gonna make this work. ~my prayers are being answered slowly.~ alhamdullilah. amin. ;) |
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Thursday, October 15, 2009/ 1:32 AM sigh. hello dear, i love you but im upset with you. i waited for two weeks just so that you could settle your stuffs so we can meetup. you said we'll meet either wednesday or thursday, then you said "i'll think about it". so what am i suppose to feel now? wait for another 2 weeks? and then when you think that you're busy, you'll make me wait for another two weeks. and another two weeks. and by that time i won't be here anymore. i don't know what you take me for now. i don't know. ~regards, fidah.~ |
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Tuesday, October 13, 2009/ 6:34 PM stress much. hello dear, i feel so stress. accommodation for LA is not settled yet, and now im planning for your birthday bash. GOSH. i "love" planning. they make me feel so incompetent and silly. im so frustrated. but it's for you dear. i want the best for you. i want you to be happy. and so i will fight on and continue planning until i become mad okay. i love you kies. *muacks* ~i can't wait until our next meetup sesh love.~ |
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Monday, October 12, 2009/ 12:18 AM this is personal. hello dear, i don't think that u read my blog. but just wanna say that i love you. ~muacks.~ |
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Saturday, October 10, 2009/ 6:19 PM reflections. hello dear, yes its me again. Just wanna thank you for the call last nite and the nite before. It might mean nothing to you bt it meant alot to me. Thank you for asking abt my day, showed me that you still care abt me, and reminding me that you love me after each call. My days are so much brighter nw. And you sound happier and healthier nw. Nw that exam is over. Im having my one week break dear. Im gg to keep myself as busy as possible until we next meet. Another nine days of sch, two weeks of exam break and im left with two weeks here in e lion city before leaving you for a month. Bt like u said, lets take things one step at a time. Cherish every moment. And i will do just that with you by my side. And ohh, thank you for asking abt my exam too dear. I will make my policeman proud. Hugss ~love, a girl who's trying her best to be an optimist. And she's lovin it.~ |
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Thursday, October 8, 2009/ 12:27 AM i needed that. hello dear, its me again. thank you for the good night call. that was a breeze of fresh air cos ive been breathing in stale air. i really appreciate the call. im still feeling down and sick but i'll pull through this sucky time of the year. everything seems so rushy now. i hope you'll wake up on time for work cos i wouldn be calling you in the morning. cos i know i'll be too groggy from the medication and you're not reachable now. ur birthday is in a few weeks time and i have something planned for u. i am excited for u and i am excited for me. i gotta be strong for us. i gotta be strong for u. i gotta be strong for me. im always praying to get the best for this relationship. (exam is on saturday and i think im dead now.) ~thank you my dearest. i heart you.~ |
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Wednesday, October 7, 2009/ 2:21 PM to you. hello dear, just in case you read this blog of mine. Im always missing you. So does my mum. She's always asking abt u. Whether you're working today, have you eaten, what are you doing, when are you coming over to layan her. Funny that she feels the loss more. I am currently trying to study for my politics exam bt its just so damn hard to concentrate. Why did you take down your fb acct. I no longer see u in msn. You said you don't need fb to contact ur frens as true frens will always make it a pt to call or msg u. Bt what will happen when im nt here in nov and dec? I don't knw dear. I just want the best for us. Im nt gg to bug u abt e fb acct and msn. Cos i knw u don't like it. If ure reading this, call me k. ~with love.~ |
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Sunday, October 4, 2009/ 1:49 AM ehh. its been two very long and torturous week. I dun wish to go thru it again. Im glad things were brought out. Things were said. Atleast there's no more animosity between us. Holding your hand, being held by you made me feel secure once again. Now we will be the bestest of frens forever, and im nt contemplating anymore. Me: i miss u. You: i miss u so much. ~i am happy.~ (Ehh ref, you BUTTOCK arh! That was a freaking foul. Grrr.) |
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