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Friday, January 29, 2010/ 8:53 PM many steps nearer to having a career. so far, i've applied for Qatar Airways and Tiger Airways. SIA will be having a walk-in interview this march. the airline industry is very tempting, the benefits and all. but i doubt i'll be able to fly my whole life cause inevitably, i would want to settle down and have my very own family. and i've applied for assistant producer, and two attractive looking desk job. so i'm crossing my fingers i'll get a call; maybe not now but in the near future. no matter what, i'm not giving up. i'll keep sending that resume out to everyone. and finally, i'm done with both ASSignments. so now it's mugging time for the 6th and 20th feb papers. but tonight, i shall enjoy welcoming the weekends. crosses fingers and toes. ~i'm so lucky to have such a supportive boyfie.~ |
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Monday, January 25, 2010/ 12:24 AM pretty and tall. i wish i am pretty and tall. (ok, i know bestie will kill me when she reads this) but i seriously wish i am pretty, skinny and tall. then i'll have the advantage over other girls cause i know everything and anything will go my way. so, i missed the SQ, emirates interview. but i've already sent out my resume to qatar airways and tiger. i know mummy won't like it cause she doesn't really like the idea of me going away from home alone. but i've always wanted to fly. and i still do. just that i don't feel i am tall/pretty/skinny enuf to fit the requirements. i know boyfie would still support me but deep down i know he wish i wouldn't get it cause then i'll have to leave him here. boyfie's been saying that he will support my every decision except joining the force. he's proud that i wanna be a career woman. doing assignment, waiting for mdis to inform me of the confirmed exam dates, besties gonna start our 2011 dream sooon, needs a job real soon, keep sending out those resumes babe.. so many things going on in this puny brain of mine. feels like it could explode anytime soon. its making me sick in my tummy; i feel like i wanna puke. seriously. don't ask me what i wanna do as a career. that qn annoys me. ~ok back to assignment. i pity boyfie. wish i can help him.~ |
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Saturday, January 23, 2010/ 1:12 AM Contented Spent a day at lovey's place. Got ALL the attention from him. Not forgetting his hugs and kisses. And OH... A kiss from afiqah! I feel so blessed and loved. I am content so I shall sleep and dream of nice things tonight ;) ~loving my smelly. - XOXO, fidah's iTouch |
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Saturday, January 16, 2010/ 5:55 PM cos you're the world behind my wall. me: sayang i love you. him: i love you too b. enough to make me smile alone. it makes me smile to know that we've been together for almost one and a half yrs now. went thru so much. got over so many things together. hardships. laughters. tears. i'm glad we went thru it all. we grew up from that. two weeks to our 18th mth. alhamdullilah. ~for life baby.~ |
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Thursday, January 14, 2010/ 10:38 PM Need space and peace Deactivated my facebook cause I feel that it's the root of all evil. I don't have any problem with my dearest activating back his facebook. Just that I'm scared of myself and the persona in me. Besides, facebook has brought many griefs to my family. So for now my facebook will be dead but i'm still contactable through phone and email. Cheers to the dead facebook! U've been a great companion all these while. Dearest is at his team's chalet. Wish I could stay there for the night. This whole unmarried thing is such a pain. Seriously I wish I'm in the states now. No restrictions. Total freedom. Rules sucks! Especially house rules. Sigh. - XOXO, fidah's iTouch |
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Tuesday, January 12, 2010/ 7:31 PM disappointments. he was super late for work cause i overslept. and now he's having a bad time at work. i feel aweful. we planned to meet tmr before he starts work. but by the look of things, i might have to change the plan. cause he'll be too tired to meet me and he needs alot alot of rest so that he could perform to his best at work. i am willing to sacrifice cause i'm the cause of it. i don't mind waiting for a few more days to meet him as long as he gets enough rest. he sounded angry in his msges. haiz. i feel really really bad now. i miss you but i dun wanna see you cranky and angry. it's ok. i'll manage. ~disappointed with myself.~ |
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Monday, January 11, 2010/ 6:18 PM patience. it's slightly more than a week. and i'm proud of myself cause i'm not whining so much now. we're happy, happier infact. he promised to meet me before his night shift on wednesday. im looking forward to that day, and thursday to attend him team's chalet thingy. i might just be his team's official photographer girl cause i'm the only one who'll bring my cam to whatever team thingy that he has. haha. but its ok. anywhere with him is fun and lovely. even if its to the end of the world. ok so went part time job hunting with yan. first stop was borders. yea we wanted to be loyal and stuff but after much discussion, decided not to. so only the sista applied for borders. as for me and yan, we're waiting for kinokuniya to call us. it was a pretty fun "outing". had lunch at BK. and it was nice. member lama dok! haha. so so so, back to my assignments now. gonna finish up as much as possible tonight and tmr, so wednesday and thursday i can enjoy my dates with him. hehe. ~jia yuo fidah!~ |
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Saturday, January 9, 2010/ 12:51 AM seven days. its been one week. and im missing him like crazy. hold on dear fidah. whats seven days when you went through it for 30 days. just hold on and you'll be fine. but 30 days, i had no assignments and exams to make me feel like crap. seven days. only seven days. im tired and missing my partner badly. well atleast there's outing with BFF tmr. ~gonna sleep and tmr will get to talk to him. ;) it'll be fine.~ |
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Thursday, January 7, 2010/ 4:04 PM not ready yet. all these talk abt marriage and engagement. i feel like puking cos the sound of it sounds like there's alot of work to do. nope. im not going to get engage or married soon. its just that ppl around me are. don't get me wrong, i'm super happy for them. but i dun wanna be officially attached too fast. yes he makes me happy, his family's super nice and all but i'm not ready to have in-laws yet. i still think in-laws are scary. cos you don't know them that well, even if u think u do. talked to dear's sister again. told her i wanna be friends as long as possible with him. i think she was shocked by my choice of words. heh. so i told her i dun feel good using the term "gf" on myself cos i dun wanna feel syiok sendiri. and she said "apa je. dah confirm pe. i'm excited for u to join our family." i dunno lah eh. i read that and i panicked. i think im having cold feet now. cos i knw im not the best daughter, gf and she's excited abt me joining the family. what if i screw up? then what? permanent chop on my forehead as the incompetent DIL? heh. and maybe his mum is different than the meanie mum in law out there. but maybe i dunno her that well. heh. ok. i am having cold feet now. dah lah. don wanna talk abt this with anyone again. cos i might just chicken out from this whole being attached thingy. ish. ~sigh.~ |
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Wednesday, January 6, 2010/ 11:00 PM sigh. and i thought 2010 would be a better year. dramatic start by childish people. sad to say that they're related. aniwaes, thats not important anymore. 2010 means completing 2 assignments and studying for 2 exams. wahlaueh. and now they're causing me to have a major headache. since yesterday. went to sleep thinking the headache would disappear in the morning. but nope. headache still there in the morning. sucks man. chatted with dearest's sister. she's sweet. but im still afraid to have in laws. shall see how ah. hmmm. the head's super pain until my eyes are in pain as well. a sign i should sleep now? i guess so. heh. 2010 please get better. ~sigh. sigh. sigh.~ |
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