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Thursday, January 7, 2010/ 4:04 PM not ready yet. all these talk abt marriage and engagement. i feel like puking cos the sound of it sounds like there's alot of work to do. nope. im not going to get engage or married soon. its just that ppl around me are. don't get me wrong, i'm super happy for them. but i dun wanna be officially attached too fast. yes he makes me happy, his family's super nice and all but i'm not ready to have in-laws yet. i still think in-laws are scary. cos you don't know them that well, even if u think u do. talked to dear's sister again. told her i wanna be friends as long as possible with him. i think she was shocked by my choice of words. heh. so i told her i dun feel good using the term "gf" on myself cos i dun wanna feel syiok sendiri. and she said "apa je. dah confirm pe. i'm excited for u to join our family." i dunno lah eh. i read that and i panicked. i think im having cold feet now. cos i knw im not the best daughter, gf and she's excited abt me joining the family. what if i screw up? then what? permanent chop on my forehead as the incompetent DIL? heh. and maybe his mum is different than the meanie mum in law out there. but maybe i dunno her that well. heh. ok. i am having cold feet now. dah lah. don wanna talk abt this with anyone again. cos i might just chicken out from this whole being attached thingy. ish. ~sigh.~ |
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